i tried to be like grace kelly

MY LAPTOP IS BACK, HALLELUJAH.

Unfortunately, I am facing down a huge basket of laundry that has been collecting at the foot of my bed since about a week ago. And earlier, I stepped on and broke my little red plastic clipboard, which I've had since I was a little kid. Bummer.

I've been thinking of trying to role play at a panfandom game, but I always get freaked out by the size and scope of some of the games; plus, I've only RPed in original character games or single fandom games. Character isn't an issue (perk wanting to write a character who was on a one-season show: she's not going to be taken anywhere at ALL), it's just my own insecurity about joining such a big game, because the ones I've thrived at have been smaller (50-60 characters at the most; with some people playing multiple characters at a time). So, uh, anyone out there who does multifandom games: have any tips or suggestions? I'd appreciate it.

Today was a long day, as my Mondays this semester have so often been. I got my story in on time, and managed to even fix the final little thing that had hindered it previously. I helped a few other people with their stories, and my script didn't entirely suck. And I was on camera and everything went well. I was happy! Everyone was happy! Our profs were all :D at us, and yea, it was good.

And for the first time in a while I am ridiculously excited about creating a new RP character. I don't know if I'm just burned out by one or two of my old ones or just severely mentally blocked with some others, but I'm all MY GOD IT'S FULL OF STARS with this character. It does not help that I've discovered Roleplaying Rabbit and I kind of want to reblog stuff from it but one of my classmates in reporting is following me now and this is applicable.

I am feeling irritated over a bunch of stupid little things right now. Let's list them!

- The change in my coat pocket has somehow fallen into the lining and I DO NOT KNOW HOW OR HOW TO GET IT OUT.
- I can't find my Zune charger so I am having to charge it at my laptop.
- I don't have enough money to buy everyone's Christmas presents right now and I won't have enough to do that until Friday.
- I want to work on the Boarding School Epic of Doom but I have this major case of writer's block for it, even though I know exactly where I want to go with it.
- I don't have time to go stop by the comic store and see if the cute cashier is working.
- My dad's gone out of town to see my granddad and he's not going to be back until Christmas.
- Pepper will not stop eating the trash in the bathroom.
- I am waitlisted for a class I really need to take and if I get into the 6 to 8:50 section it will screw up my work schedule SO MUCH and I REALLY NEED TO TAKE IT EARLIER.
- I can't get storylines I want because I swear sometimes I feel like I'm one of the five people on IJ who doesn't mind writing women and men.

But on the good:
- I have three episodes of Misfits to watch whenever I get some time. I am officially hooked on it, omg.
- I'm doing that "50 Most Attractive" meme that was going around on Tumblr a few months ago and I'm posting it here.
- I finally downloaded LJ Juggler, which is like LJLogin for Chrome and I may finally have to make the switch over to Chrome officially.
- I saw Megamind, Black Swan, and Tron Legacy over the course of two days, which was interesting. Megamind totally surpassed my expectations, Black Swan was amazing and left me feeling ridiculously paranoid, and Tron was a nice way to chill after the intensity of Black Swan--plus, it had Garrett and Olivia (unf).
- I get to do all the Christmas shopping on Christmas Eve which is going to be fun. I am seriously one of those people who loves shopping on Christmas Eve because after years of going with my mom, I know how to navigate.
- Fingers crossed, come the 26th and I will finally have a friggin' Nintendo Wii. I hope that GameStop still has the red one for $199 then.
- DELICIOUS MAY NOT BE GOING AWAY. THANK THE LORD. I have way too many links to random blogs/Photoshop things linked there. I suppose I could use Instapaper but I can't TAG there.
- Easy A is out on DVD tomorrow, hurray!

As I've mentioned briefly before, in my off-time I roleplay, and ever since someone else brought the idea up I have been trying to figure out if I would want to attempt to start a game based on the idea that you create your character around a trope from TV Tropes. I would so love to do that, except I have a history of starting games and the games not taking off and feeling like a massive failure when that happens.

Eh. Either way...

the TV TROPES meme

HAVE FUN. TRY NOT TO GET SUCKED TOO DEEP INTO THE VORTEX.

Proof that I have no life: I make random text icons with quotes from chats/entries/IMs from an RP that I'm in. It is not my fault that everyone's hilarious over there! DON'T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT.

I don't know if anyone else (besides the few people that I know of) out there RPs on InsaneJournal, but this past week was just a big ball of drama over there. A relatively popular/huge PB community shut down because someone started an anon journal wherein people talked a lot of crap about the members and the mods of that game. It had happened before, but with this community (of which I was a member of), it was a frequent occurrence and after nine months of being open (and by IJ RP standards, that's the rough equivalent of eons), it got shut down because of the incessant asshattery.

To counter the mean anon journals, someone else made posanon, for positive stuff about various games. I was posting in one of the threads and I happened to look down and I saw a thread in which someone complimented one of my current characters. I am in an awesome mood right now because of that.

Man, I wish fandom_wank's policy on f-locked entries was different, because right now, there is a major wankstorm brewing on InsaneJournal over a RP I am a member of. The mods have been freaking tracking people and shit. This is epic.

I am a weird writer, in that I tend to not write outlines and backstories on any of my characters. Instead, I internalize all the info and sometimes take notes, and then I write. But right now, I have a document in Google Docs in which I am writing random thoughts about character's motivations and their personal histories. And it is ridiculously cracky and kind of weird.

I think this will be my attempted summer project--to write this story (which I will call "The Boarding School Epic of Doom") which I have kind of started on. It's been floating in my head for the better part of two years, ever since the summer/fall of 2006 and it stemmed loosely from an RP I was in, and mostly due to the fact that I loved the characters in it (especially mine), and I wanted to kind of keep them "alive" in a way. If that makes sense.

And now I go back to studying. :[

I am more upset about getting rejected from an RPG than I really should be. It's just that... I've been doing it for two years, and to get my first rejection ever over a role I was getting OMGSOPSYCHED for (after not hearing anything from the mods for like, three days)? Sucks. Majorly. It's worse than constantly feeling like a community killer.