I don't know where I went wrong, but the feeling's gone and I just can't get it back.

Happy new year, everyone.

Don't you hate it when you're trying to get over something or someone, and it seems like your heart and your subconcious just refuses to let you? It hurts and you wish that you'd never let yourself get invovled, that you never cared... all of that.

I know I dwell too much about this, that it's in the past... but God. When you genuinely care about someone and you're brushed aside like bad leftovers just because you believe different things than they do, it hurts like sheer hell. People tell you that you shouldn't stop caring, because it's a good thing. If it's so good, why do the people you care about hurt you?

Really, sometimes I really wish I could go to a shrink or somebody who can figure out what's wrong with me. Crap happens to other people, and they rebound quickly. Why can't I get over it? People stop speaking to each other all the time. Why do I freaking care so much?

Ugh.

please tell me why my car is in the front yard...

Friday Five.

What one thing are you most looking forward to...

1. ...today? watching more of the CSI DVDs.
2. ...over the next week? going back to school and seeing Drew.
3. ...this year? going to prom and graduating.
4. ...over the next five years? possibly traveling.
5. ...for the rest of your life? seeing the world, making a name for myself, falling in love, and figuring out what I believe.

Okay, this is just infinetly stupid. This being the Nelly "Search for Ms. Applebottms" thing on VH1. Ugh. I don't need to see girls wagging their boo-tays at me, yo.

I taped Can't Hardly Wait. Great movie.

I kind of do/kind of don't want to go back to school on Tuesday.

I'm retaking my drivers' test (AGAIN) sometime in the next week or so. I'm going to be sick.