I wanna push you around--well, I will.

[enamoured]

Stuff like this should NOT freakin' happen in high school. Crap like this goes on in third grade, maybe middle school, but HIGH SCHOOL... no.

Stupid Nolan. Stupid futhermucking Nolan. He harasses me EVERY DAY in econ, and today he just GOES and brings up the same crap I have heard since third grade.

"Why don't chu lose some weight? Thicklet!"

Everyone keeps saying, "He's just playing with you!" Like hell. EVERY kid who picked on me for being tall and being fat wasn't playing with me. That boy is NOT playing with me.

I'm so damn sick of that being the first insult someone throws at me. God, I KNOW I'm fat and ugly, is it REALLY necessary for you to throw it in my face? This is why I want to stop eating for oh, a good six months so that assholes like Nolan won't be able to call me "fatty" or "thicklet" again.

Maybe if that happens, I can actually get a guy I like to pay attention to me! Oh, wait, no I won't. I still have irreversibly screwed up teeth! I still have to get braces! And oh! Maybe that won't even work! Plastic surgery could.

Why can't girls have intelligence AND beauty? And how come I got the former but will need a good million to have the latter?

I hate this.

Comments

[verymandy.livejournal.com]

what a stupid fucking asshole. can I come kick his ass?

[mzspearz.livejournal.com]

Awww, sweetie. But you DO have both. Inner beauty lasts so much longer, & that's what you have.

Surround yourself with friends who encourage & not discourage you. Stand up to people like this & tell him you're sick of it. Let him know what you're thinking (um, to a degree, don't say something that will get you kicked out of school or something, lol).

Or tell him in about 10 years you'll take his ugly butt on the Jenny Jones show & show him how you've gone from 'geek to chic' (so to speak), lol.

"Why don't chu lose some weight?" My response: Well, we don't YOU learn proper English & grow a filter (hey! the word Clay likes to use about Simon). ;P

& hey, if it helps you any, I'm not the skinniest girl on the block. Actually, you know the show "The OC"....dude, I LIVE there. Everyone here is about as beautiful as that show...& as shallow as they come. You get used to this stuff. But in order to do that, love yourself first. Invest time in you. I've wanted a boyfriend since I was 12, but since I've not gotten one, I've gotten to see all my friends in their relationships & all the crap they went through...& I've been able to learn from that without having to actually go through that, & I'm very thankful for it now. I know God has someone special in mind...& He'll bring him along when I'm ready. For now I concentrate on what makes me happy...I go out with my friends, do schoolwork (well, that doesn't exactly make me happy, but good grades aren't too bad, haha), & participate in "extracurricular" activities...& just whatever else comes along. It only takes one person to make you whole, & that's you. ;D

P.S. Sorry I babbled on, I just feel I can relate, lol.

[brittuhknee.livejournal.com]

Dude, everything she said. That was a fabulous reply. And as cliche as it may sound, she's totally right that inner beauty lasts much longer. And, um, from the picture I've seen of you in your icon .. you seem to have the outer beauty thing goin' on as well. Did you read my latest entry? It never stops, the cruelty of the world. We need to just learn to stick up for ourselves, know we're just fine the way we are in God's eyes, and that's all that matters. We're here to please no one but God.

And I know you already know this but something I need to remind myself: WHEN (not if) you do get to looking like you want to, don't go for any of the guys you know now .. that don't like you the way you are now. Start out new. ;)

I love you, babygirl. And I mean that.

[supersyncspaz7.livejournal.com]

aww, thanks sweetie. :] I needed that.

[freebishchick.livejournal.com]

that kid must have tons of insecurity issues to be still making fun of people the way he does. I still don't get what people get out of hurting others. Just think how lucky you are that you don't feel the need to treat others the way this loser does!

[cottleston-pie.livejournal.com]

Asshole. I HATE people like that, but I always dealt with it poorly... With profane language and threats of disembowelment... Spit in his eye next time... "just playing"... my ass.

Hey!

[lifeguardonduty.livejournal.com]

I just wanted to tell you your expressions are kick ass!

[woo2step.livejournal.com]

Anyone who knows you knows you're gorgeous. I don't even have to see you to know that!

P.S. I've been getting those juvenile comments since I was young, too (yesterday as well, now that I think of it). My childhood pudge blossomed into fat because I figured, "Hey, I'm huge and ugly, anyway. Who cares how much I eat?" I hate that I let ignorant, stupid people get to me like that, and I don't want you to be affected by the thoughts of people you're not even gonna remember once you get out of the high school bubble.

P.P.S. On the boyfriend situation, those who ignore you because you don't fit their narrow definition of beauty, screw 'em. Well. Not literally. Not that I'm implying you would. I speak, of course, in the metaphorical sense.

And I'd have totally crushed on you had I gone to your high school. So neener.

[silvertigress.livejournal.com]

Last time someone called me thicklet, I took my superbly heavy history textbook, turned around in my seat and gave him a hit so hard that sparks came out of his eyes when the teacher wasn't looking.

Thou art the greatest, Ce and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You write? Yes, you do so well. You sing? I never heard but I can give you an A++++++ on lyrics. You're smart? See you in NY when you go to Columbia, NYU or Pace University (w00t to Pace!!!)

And do kill him or I will, kay?