enamoured | you make it hurt so good.

I need to join another dream analysis community, because last night I had another slightly frightening dream. I was making out with people. Lots of people. I am not a compulsive maker-outer. Cripes.

Ever since about Monday, I've been getting these random stomach ache/cramps during the course of the day, and they hurt like you wouldn't believe. After the second day, I was slightly convinced that my appendix burst and that I was gonna die or something. I don't know what's wrong, but I think I'm gonna ask my mom whenever she comes do.

I got my mark stuff today. I can start selling soon. Wheeeeeee. Hello possible money for Candice! The stuff is pretty neat. Go me.

I Love the 80s Strikes Back rocks SO hard. I'm laughing harder at it than I did at the original.

I thought about doing that whole "cast of characters" thing so that no one forgets who I'm talking about, but I never know who to include on those kind of things.

I can no longer look at Jacob with a straight face anymore. Every time I see him and even if he smiles in my direction, what Rachel said keeps echoing in the back of my mind: He's a freak! I feel almost compelled to laugh or something. It's awful. I'm actually kind of curious about this, even though it sounds horrible. Maybe he was just kidding. But still, I don't know if I want to be around him alone... ha...

And why am I currently in love with two younger guys? And why am I telling myself I'll ask one out even though I know I haven't got the guts to do it? Am I really that much of a masochist?

I guess so. Ha.