enamoured | because your kiss is what I miss when I turn out the lights.--Hall and Oates (Reply)

you know what I want more than anything right now? I want to get kissed. People express the expected disbelief when I tell them I've never been kissed, but then they say that it's "not that big of a deal" and stuff. But... you can't say that to someone who hasn't gotten kissed before. It's like telling someone that has never seen Niagra Falls that it's not absolutely stunning, you know?

I just want to know what it's like. I want to feel what it's like. Every time I look at The Boy, with his cute, pouty, John Mayer-ish lips, I want to know what it's like to kiss him. I can always close my eyes and imagine what it'd almost be like, but a girl can do that for so long. Basically every guy I've liked since I was in middle school, I've imagined kissing. And I've wanted to kiss every one of them, but they either despised me or I didn't have the nerve to get to know them, ask them out, and otherwise do everything that leads up to a first kiss.

Everyone says that kisses, boyfriends, relationships are not that big of a deal. But you can't tell that to someone who's never experienced it.

I just want one kiss. And what sucks is that I'm picky about who I want it with.

Sigh. I want to try it. Just once. With a nice guy.