because your kiss is what I miss when I turn out the lights.--Hall and Oates

[enamoured]

you know what I want more than anything right now? I want to get kissed. People express the expected disbelief when I tell them I've never been kissed, but then they say that it's "not that big of a deal" and stuff. But... you can't say that to someone who hasn't gotten kissed before. It's like telling someone that has never seen Niagra Falls that it's not absolutely stunning, you know?

I just want to know what it's like. I want to feel what it's like. Every time I look at The Boy, with his cute, pouty, John Mayer-ish lips, I want to know what it's like to kiss him. I can always close my eyes and imagine what it'd almost be like, but a girl can do that for so long. Basically every guy I've liked since I was in middle school, I've imagined kissing. And I've wanted to kiss every one of them, but they either despised me or I didn't have the nerve to get to know them, ask them out, and otherwise do everything that leads up to a first kiss.

Everyone says that kisses, boyfriends, relationships are not that big of a deal. But you can't tell that to someone who's never experienced it.

I just want one kiss. And what sucks is that I'm picky about who I want it with.

Sigh. I want to try it. Just once. With a nice guy.

Comments

[enchanted-dream.livejournal.com]

i know how you feel. i agree.

[thatgirlontv.livejournal.com]

that was adorable... i really hope you get kissed too! <3

[nyurbanflavor.livejournal.com]

Everyone says that kisses, boyfriends, relationships are not that big of a deal. But you can't tell that to someone who's never experienced it.

I agree.

I just want one kiss. And what sucks is that I'm picky about who I want it with.

Sigh. I want to try it. Just once. With a nice guy.

Same here. You're not alone. I feel ya on that one.

[loseric.livejournal.com]

I know exactly how you feel, or how you felt, rather. It's true that you can't tell someone it's a big deal until they've actually had the experience themselves, and I personally felt annoyed with people telling me that too. It's good that you're picky, I think. It will only make the first one that much more special and with someone you really care about.
I wish I had waited a little while longer, and not just gone with it on a spur of the moment thing. I am kind of relieved to have it over (but only because I feel so old), but I still wonder what it would have been like had I waited. Oh well, c'est la vie. My advice after all of this babbling? Don't give up at the ripe old age of 18 and kiss a gay boy for the hell of it.

[imafuforlance.livejournal.com]

i totally know what you are going through. i'm 26 and didn't have my first date until a week ago. and i still haven't been kissed. and yes i would love to know what it's like. but i truly believe that it will happen when it's right. the same will go for you. don't rush it. it'll happen. you just have to be patient. :)