I have scaled these city walls only to be with you, only to be with you.

[enamoured]

As much as I love my Component layout, I'm starting to worry that it is causing my LJ reading experience to decrease. It may just be the connection, but I must ask--has anyone else's friends page been loading ridiculously slow? And then screwing up? 'Cause I can't see my sidebars and the entries are all stretched out and sometimes the page won't load. And, ugh, it's so annoying. Sometimes I feel tempted to pack up and head over to GreatestJournal permanently, but, you know. This journal and I have history, yo. I love it. And even though the name annoys me for some strange reason sometimes, I wouldn't want to abandon this and have to be enamoured permanently.

I am rambling. I shall shut up.

I'm slightly annoyed at my dad. He said he'd take me to Old Navy yesterday but he didn't. And he said he'd take me today, but he went to this church thing. I don't mean to be bratty, but dude. I've been in the house all weekend. I want out. And I want to get a new jacket and a hoodie and some cargos from Old Navy. I'm such a brat sometimes, I swear. I don't mean to be greedy, but I want stuff. [enter guilt trip]

Anyway, Dad rented Finding Nemo and I watched it on Saturday and then twice yesterday as my brother fell asleep when we tried to watch it Friday night, and Dad didn't see it on Friday. I seriously love Disney/Pixar. And I am seriously like, seven inside.

And one more thing about my dad (I mentioned him a bit too much today): he keeps asking what I want for Christmas. And what I want is a camera and some time in a recording studio. And, okay, clothes, CDs, The Boy to notice me, for Nolan to leave me alone, for my knee to stop hurting, to lose 40 pounds, and braces.

I am seriously unfunny sometimes.

I want to do something for my birthday (as of tomorrow, it's a month away. [runs away screaming]) but I have NO idea what to do. Or who to invite if I do something. 'Cause in my delusional dreams, I kick everyone out of the house, invite some of the people who are vaguely nicer to me, and we do stuff that happens at house parties in the movies. But our house isn't that big, and chances are, if I throw a party, there'd be this strange mesh of people who'd be like, "Why the hell are you inviting me?", and it'd be a disaster, because my social situation skills are like, pitiful. And besides, I'd HAVE to invite guys, and we all know I'm socially spaztastic around guys. But I want to do SOMETHING. I haven't had a birthday party since I was thirteen! And I didn't have a "sweet sixteen" so I owe myself a teenage party of [slight] debauchery.

If I do have a party, though, it's going to be 80s-themed. Thank you, VH1, for making me a fan of a decade with the tackiest clothes available.

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[brittuhknee.livejournal.com]

Man. I'm supposed to be having a birthday party not this coming Saturday, but the next. My 18th. But I, as well, have the most awful social skills. It was just going to be a more family / church oriented thing anyway, no biggie. But no family has said anything about whether they are coming or not, and we've been having a lot of problems with the church. A few friends from work were coming, but they won't let anyone else request it off.

I'm such a loser. My mom feels like I'm disappointed in her / upset with her for even throwing it in the first place since it's going to be such a dud, but I'm not. I know she tried. It's just going to very depressing, lol.