if I go there will be trouble, but if I stay there will be double...

[enamoured]

Oh God oh God oh God oh God, just why why WHY.

This whole Shawn/prom thing? It gets progressively uglier EVERY DAY.

I told Shana how I feel about this whole situation, and she told me that he was gushing to her, saying how prom would be his "first date ever" and how excited he was, as if I need any more GUILT about this. She also told me not to hurt his feelings, which I REALLY don't want to do, but as the date looms closer and the more uncomfortable I grow with this situation, the more I am considering doing something downright dirty and despicable to get him to avoid me at prom. I've thought about cussing up a storm (he doesn't like cussing), smoking (just oh, one cigarette to ruin whatEVER positive image he has of me), and miscellaneous other bad things. But I'm not that kind of girl. This is my saving grace and my biggest pitfall. I'm too nice to hurt people's feelings, yet I end up in situations I do NOT want to effing be in. Can I just SLAM my head into a brick wall? Or can Mr. Aiken PLEASE make a last minute RSVP to my prom invite from my fan letter last year? PLEASE? (um, long story; will tell later. Ha.)

Cri. Key.

To further add to me feeling positively HORRID about this, I now have to live with the fact that I had SO many guy "friends" I could've asked. Oh hell, I should've asked Drew. I should've asked Sharrod. He's a sophomore playing varisty; he should be a prom date. But now it's far, far too late for that. Crikey.

Comments

[funkyskier.livejournal.com]

Yikes! I'm sorry you prom situation isn't going good at all. It's situations you're in that I try to avoid. So I'm not attending my prom. Never been to a highschool formal, never will. Thank god I'm graduating it 24 days. Good luck!

[krista.livejournal.com]

Awww his first date ever. I'm sorry about what's going on. I am the same way as you, I don't like to hurt people's feelings. Those are all good ideas though. Maybe do all of them......and maybe Mr. Aiken will show up last minute like Davy Jones did on The Brady Bunch :)

[brittuhknee.livejournal.com]

Just TALK to him about it! That's really all you can do, I think .. it may hurt his feelings, whatever it is you have to say .. but it's better to be honest, yes?

(Listen to me. I'm the same chick who started avoiding this guy who thought we were together. Didn't tell him why I quit talking to him, either.)

[sara-says-grrr.livejournal.com]

Sherrod!!!

wouldn't Leidy not like that?

haha.

[supersyncspaz7.livejournal.com]

I didn't know he has a girlfriend! Aww!

[sara-says-grrr.livejournal.com]

haha. they've been going out for like...8 months..