music is a world within itself with a language we all understand.

[enamoured]

Right now, I'm just going to go out on a tangent about songwriting.

Sometimes, when I'm done writing a song and I can hear the music in my head, I get depressed because it never sounds like something I'd sing. The sad thing is, I write words; I'm not sure what genre I could be boxed into, so I don't have a "sound". Genre shouldn't matter, music should matter, but I wish I had some kind of direction besides just writing words that I like and would like to sing, and that I wouldn't mind sharing with others, be it having someone else sing it or singing it myself.

This makes no sense, I know. Maybe it would to someone who wants to make music like I do. Maybe it's a lyricist thing. Maybe I'm just crazy and babbling and no one gets it... and that's indicating that I should stop.

I wrote lryics last night, making me feel a little better. I've written three sets of lyrics since May, after going through a huge dry spell of not writing any lyrics at all. The song's called "To Be Your Woman". It, and "Sixteenth Birthday", are two of my songs that I just wrote out of nowhere and didn't dwell too much on, I just edited them and copied them in my lyric book.

I tore out a couple of pages from the lyric book last night. They were lyrics I'd written when I was twelve, thirteen, and fourteen that I copied from my old book into the one I'm using now. (I've been putting lyrics in my current book since freshman year.) The songs were just... not me anymore. At first I felt guilty because I've torn tons out of that book, but I didn't later. I would start a new book but I think I'm going to start typing everything out in a Word file.

The music thing always makes me nervous. I like composing, or trying to. I like writing lyrics. But then I worry I'll never be a songwriter because I can't play anything. What if I can't learn how to? Then I have to tell myself that I can do it.

I'm such a spaz. I just want to make music of my own.

Later, I'll take pictures of the book, because I want everyone to see every detail of my life. (I kid, I kid...)

And this has nothing to do with anything, but... does anyone have Real Player? Do you use the visualizations? Right now my favorite is "Annabelle the Sheep". It's so silly and cute.

Comments

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I totally understand what you're saying. I used to write lots of lyrics too, and then would feel lost because I didn't know where to go from there. That's why I started learning guitar, so that I could turn my lyrics into actual songs. And now I'm performing them, which feels like I've actually accomplished something, which is great and not something I ever thought I'd actually be able to do. You could definitely learn an instrument. Don't be scared. I took piano for a couple of years and just never really got into it. It was too hard for me to write with and I always felt really intimidated. With guitar, though, you can honestly start learning and writing real songs in a matter of hours, because once you learn a couple of chords you're set.

Anyway, I hope that was helpful. Just know that you're not alone! And you can do it! :)