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enamouredI heard something yesterday that reminded me of one of my best friends from way back when, and it made me want to look her up on Facebook so that I could say hi. Just for old time's sake.
She was actually one of the first people I added on Facebook, but she deactivated her account in, like, 2008 or so, I think? I can't remember for sure, but the way I see it, people sometimes come back to sites. And Facebook is so ubiquitous that it is nearly impossible to stay away unless you're super against them. So she could, in theory, have an account.
But I am scared to look her up because I'm afraid that I'll find out that she never bothered to make a new account at all, or that she did and she doesn't update any more because she's dead.
It's a ridiculously specific, possibly irrational fear, but it's somewhat valid for me, at least. I was LJ friends with a girl from high school who I didn't talk to a lot after I graduated, and sometime around 2007 she stopped updating her journal. In the fall of 2009, I got an email from another LJ user who was a friend of hers, asking if I knew anything about her whereabouts, and I told him no. Almost a week later, he sent me an email that more or less said he'd talked to another one of her friends, and found out that she had died two years earlier.
I wasn't super-close to her, but close enough for it to have an impact. She was the same age as my brother. She had a little boy. She'd had some pretty serious health problems, and had been getting better. And then I found out that she was dead--had been for years at that point.
So, okay, if I found out that something bad happened to my other friend, who had me over for sleepovers and talked to on the phone for hours and hours, who went to concerts with me, I'd be even more of a wreck. But I want to know if she's out there still, and if I found her and messaged her with this news (does she still keep up with it; maybe she already knows), if she'd laugh and we could joke about how silly we were back then.
I don't know what to do. I hope my fear's just my anxiety talking. Not every friend that you lose contact with is permanently gone. But the fact that they could be terrifies the shit out of me.
Somewhat related: I am so glad that I found this gifset on Tumblr, because the first time that I saw the quesadilla episode of My Drunk Kitchen I loved that line. God, I love that show. I think I have a crush on Hannah.
And so this won't be COMPLETELY depressing: I went through this weird... thing a few weeks ago, where I watched a LOT of videos of girls getting One Direction concert tickets on YouTube. There were some absolutely fun and funny ones, but this has got to be my favorite. "Mine doesn't smell like shit!" And then her reaction when she opens her eyes kills me. BEAUTIFUL.
She was actually one of the first people I added on Facebook, but she deactivated her account in, like, 2008 or so, I think? I can't remember for sure, but the way I see it, people sometimes come back to sites. And Facebook is so ubiquitous that it is nearly impossible to stay away unless you're super against them. So she could, in theory, have an account.
But I am scared to look her up because I'm afraid that I'll find out that she never bothered to make a new account at all, or that she did and she doesn't update any more because she's dead.
It's a ridiculously specific, possibly irrational fear, but it's somewhat valid for me, at least. I was LJ friends with a girl from high school who I didn't talk to a lot after I graduated, and sometime around 2007 she stopped updating her journal. In the fall of 2009, I got an email from another LJ user who was a friend of hers, asking if I knew anything about her whereabouts, and I told him no. Almost a week later, he sent me an email that more or less said he'd talked to another one of her friends, and found out that she had died two years earlier.
I wasn't super-close to her, but close enough for it to have an impact. She was the same age as my brother. She had a little boy. She'd had some pretty serious health problems, and had been getting better. And then I found out that she was dead--had been for years at that point.
So, okay, if I found out that something bad happened to my other friend, who had me over for sleepovers and talked to on the phone for hours and hours, who went to concerts with me, I'd be even more of a wreck. But I want to know if she's out there still, and if I found her and messaged her with this news (does she still keep up with it; maybe she already knows), if she'd laugh and we could joke about how silly we were back then.
I don't know what to do. I hope my fear's just my anxiety talking. Not every friend that you lose contact with is permanently gone. But the fact that they could be terrifies the shit out of me.
Somewhat related: I am so glad that I found this gifset on Tumblr, because the first time that I saw the quesadilla episode of My Drunk Kitchen I loved that line. God, I love that show. I think I have a crush on Hannah.
And so this won't be COMPLETELY depressing: I went through this weird... thing a few weeks ago, where I watched a LOT of videos of girls getting One Direction concert tickets on YouTube. There were some absolutely fun and funny ones, but this has got to be my favorite. "Mine doesn't smell like shit!" And then her reaction when she opens her eyes kills me. BEAUTIFUL.
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Date: 2013-02-24 02:19 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2013-02-28 03:06 am (UTC)I'm fuckin' jealous of anyone who has 1D tix. It's the one thing I wanted so badly for my birthday, but they're too expensive on the non-Ticketmaster sites and on eBay so I didn't actually ask anyone to try and get me a pair.
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Date: 2013-03-02 04:00 am (UTC)And I don't know if I want to just hit her up wherever first just to say "did you hear that Nick Carter's engaged?" But, y'know, it'd be fun to reminisce over that.
I have been looking at ticket prices on Stub Hub for 1D and OH MY GOD WHAT.
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Date: 2013-03-02 06:14 pm (UTC)Ughhh, I hate Stub Hub. I hate everyone that bought tix just to sell them elsewhere at ungodly prices. So unfair to all of us actual fans!