I am so tired and yet I can't sleep.

[enamoured]

Mental health talk of the day: I really cannot tell if my minor apathy/Case of Sads is related to hormones or the weird, once every few months depression that I get into, and I hate that. It's so jarring to feel fine one day and for a few days after feeling horrible. I don't think it's anything that I can truly get used to. Just wish I could control it better.

Other talk: my parents' fortieth anniversary is in two weeks, and I want to do something special for them. I have absolutely no idea what, but something. I can hardly see myself married to someone, never mind being with them for forty years. That's intense. I feel like that's not going to happen to me more and more, but I'd like that. The idea of liking someone enough that I could be with them that long regardless. That kind of thing.

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[library-of-sex.livejournal.com]

Dude, I 100% get what you mean. I get nervous that I might have a real chemical imbalance cuz I can be so normal and stable one day and then something small can trigger a real sadness in me for days upon days. It's scary. What makes you think it might be hormones going offkilter this time and perhaps not the semi-regular depression that you lapse into? No matter the cause, I hope you'll feel more calm and balanced soon. *hugs*

Good on your parents for enjoying an actual lasting commitment to each other. 40 years is a damn long time, and here's to them enjoying many more together! ;)